Love still hurts!

I'm on the second day of being extremely lonely. This afternoon, I received new information about "her" and "him", collectively, "them". I'm hurt that I heard several sightings of them being together. He was sighted several times at Matimtiman St. in Teachers Village. He also fetched her last Saturday at Philcoa after the UP Fighting Maroons basketball game. Now I think you know why I don't like to watch the game at Araneta, and why I don't like the team right now. I won't be surprised anymore if tomorrow or next week, I'll hear that they're officially "on" na. I hope not. For the mean time, I won't concede. I won't accept defeat. I'll just think.

It makes me ponder if this week is really an unlucky one. Several of my orgmates also have problems. I saw Faiva crying. Precious and Andrew broke up. I wonder who's next.

I have to concentrate and study for my Pol Sc 178 exam on Thursday, but I can't seem to focus. During the next few days, you might see that I am okay. I won't be (at least in the near future). I feel so helpless. I feel that I am a loser. I feel so alone. I feel so empty.

Nahihirapan na ako! Bakit ba kailangang ganito ang mangyari? I'm hoping that one of these days, I'll sleep very deeply and never to wake up again.